Benchmarks of adulthood

TUESDAY, 18 NOVEMBER 2003

The so-called benchmarks of adulthood are marriage and buying a house. According to this standard, I am still a child, trapped in the body of an adult male. Surely I will hit the benchmarks sooner or later. The question is, will I feel more like an adult then than is the case now?

It is strange how I almost look forward to being an adult, to finally, after so many years as a child-man caught up in my own strange world, qualify as a mature adult in the eyes of the community. Will I have a car? I will certainly own a house. Maybe I’ll even shave every day! I’ll also have to mow the lawn. I will, as a matter of course – because it’s a requirement – be married.

My “wife” will introduce me to people as her “husband”. We’ll go shopping on Saturday mornings – me in an old T-shirt and possibly unshaven (since it would be the weekend). My “wife” would throw frozen vegetables and fresh fruit into the trolley and remove the frozen pizzas and fresh doughnuts that I threw in. Maybe we’ll go to church every Sunday – naturally I would be clean shaven, with a smart suit.

On Sunday afternoon we will visit friends, drink tea from cups with matching saucers like decent adults, and talk about what had happened at “work” that week. After the conversations we’ll get back into our car. My “wife” will confirm the ingredients of a recipe with the other woman, and then I’ll tap once or twice on the horn as we drive away, with a single arm waving out the window.

Oh my. How nice it sounds to be an adult. I just wonder, would it be all right if I only shave every third day? And is there a chance that we can negotiate about mowing the lawn?

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Money is important

SUNDAY, 3 NOVEMBER 2003

To say money is important is the same as to say “It’s cold” when you’re standing stark naked in two feet of snow in sub-zero temperatures. Both are absurd understatements that disregards the severity of the actual situation.

The importance of money cannot and should never be underestimated. But to stop at the realisation of the importance of money would be to only acknowledge half the truth. To remain caught up in the singular pursuit of money when you’re not engaged anymore in a daily struggle for survival is to be an ignorant former serf, too recently released from his servitude to know any better.

I can go one step further. Being in a position to afford more noble and/or creative pursuits in terms of both time and money, and to not pursue them, is indeed to be the most pathetic class of serf imaginable – one in seemingly perpetual mental servitude. And this applies not only to “those rich folks up on the hill”. It is equally valid for the average citizen who wastes his or her life while in actual fact being capable of a life worthy of being called human.

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Not desperate enough to be rich

TUESDAY, 28 OCTOBER 2003

I am not desperate enough to get rich. And I don’t mean to say that this desired state should arrive right about at the moment I withdraw the last small change from my inner pocket. No, this desperation should arrive on a plate filled to the brim with actions one could take, items one could purchase, and improvements one could only manifest with some real hard currency.

There can be no doubt that this is the time to be rich. If you’re not a terrorist, you can enjoy almost unrestricted travel anywhere in the world. The well-to-do man or woman can also embark on endless shopping sprees, accumulating a range of consumer products to indulge their every fancy. They can naturally also attract members of the opposite gender, or whatever gender they prefer.

It’s fair to say I don’t follow fashion, and I’m no devoted addict of consumerism. But in case sudden wealth befell me, I would purchase myself some shirts and maybe a new pair of trousers (my best pair is adorned with multi-coloured splashes of paint). I would also buy myself a new computer, and a new bicycle. And then I would fly to Japan, economy class, despite the fact that I’d be able to afford a place in a more elevated hierarchy. Going on a vacation like that would also mean that I will indeed have reached a degree of freedom of movement hitherto only imagined in afternoon naps. I could also fly home for a week to stock up on decent toilet paper, Steers garlic sauce, and some magazines where I don’t need to consult two English-Chinese dictionaries just to understand the title.

This is not only the time to be rich, it is also the time to become rich. Technology previously beyond the reach of common people is, in a lot of cases at least, now as easily obtainable as a new shirt, and not necessarily more expensive. It has become a mantra that I dutifully recite to all within earshot that it is now more unnecessary than ever to submit your labour to the highest bidder, and to submit your freedom of dress, speech, thought and movement to corporate authorisation. Information on specific methods, skills and tricks are widely available to the corporate serf who is planning an entrepreneurial breakout, or the odd rebel who has so far been untouched by the fascist claws of corporate institutions.

To seek out and find this information is one thing, though. The virgin entrepreneur also needs to re-educate themselves. They would need to carefully analyse, reconsider and change where necessary their ways of thinking about things. They need to understand that doing “free creative work under one’s own control” requires self-discipline, ambition, and confidence in one’s own abilities and talents – and an honest appreciation of one’s weaknesses. It requires of the would-be successful entrepreneur to work long, hard hours – almost like in a corporate job, but hopefully at home, in clothes ten times more comfortable than a suit, with music of their choice filling airwaves previously ravaged by the screams and whines of corporate authority figures.

All of these useful little titbits are not what I intended to state in this particular piece. I merely wanted to create a platform to express my opinion that I am not yet desperate enough to be rich. I am adequately aware of weaknesses and strengths I could have as an entrepreneur. I am also very stoic – in case that comes in handy (I eat cereal even when I have canned tuna in my food box), and the fact that I’m reluctant to socialise with people doesn’t mean I can’t call it self-discipline.

What I need though, is the desire that burns inside a man returning to city life after years in the desert, knowing that he can have anything and everything he’s been missing if he could just lay his hands on some local currency. That – is what I need.

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Productivity and the lie

MONDAY, 20 OCTOBER 2003

The primary motivations behind the choices and actions that define my daily life are, as I mentioned earlier, the concepts of PRODUCTIVE USE OF LIFE WHILE IT FLOWS IN YOUR VEINS and an accompanying AVERSION TO THE LIE.

Many will want to propagate the idea that to make as much money as you can is a beautiful example of PRODUCTIVE USE. I believe it only qualifies as such if you take actions with the money that will lead to significant improvement in your own life and preferably also the lives of other people.

Just making a lot of money and then focusing on pleasure and entertainment is by definition a waste of LIFE WHILE IT FLOWS IN YOUR VEINS. It can also, on a certain level, and as the result of an argument I am not going to make right now, be seen as a LIE.

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One/zero, and why one is better

SUNDAY, 12 OCTOBER 2003

Sometimes someone makes a choice, and it can only be described as the worse of, let’s say two options. With regard to this person’s decision, I also have a choice: to try and understand why the person made a particular choice, or not to try and understand.

If I manage to understand why someone made the worst of two choices and explain it to a third party, the latter may be tempted to say, “But that’s not an excuse,” and that I am defending that person.

My answer is that just because I understand why someone made a bad choice doesn’t suddenly make the choice less bad. A bad choice is a bad choice, whether you understand what motivated the person or not. But I also believe that the choice to not want to understand why someone made a bad choice is also the worst of two options.

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