What you need – and must believe

FRIDAY, 8 APRIL 2005

14:04

What do you need?

You need a partner, someone who understands you, who understands where you come from and what your idea of a future looks like, who accepts your flaws and limitations and who respects your strengths and your view of yourself; someone who recognizes your potential and your talents; someone who confirms your positive view of who and what you are. You also need a place – a home, somewhere you can let go of your measures, where you can relax, where you can thrive, where you can grow into who you want to be.

You need honest and genuine love.

TUESDAY, 12 APRIL 2005

21:20

Over the past few hours I have (again) become aware of a few things:

  • life is always a struggle – at first (or continuously) for survival, and then to either maintain a good life, or for something better – an extraordinary life, according to your own standards;
  • there are so many things to fear that it is almost a miracle that we are not so fearful all the time that it impedes our functioning;
  • considering the previous point it can be said that confidence is the hallmark of a fool – but, as an excellent illustration of the contradictions of life, you will accomplish nothing if you do not have confidence;
  • I find myself quite absurd in the classroom – at home I apply my self-awareness and my abilities to productive and most interesting work, then suddenly I appear in an environment with rules and regulations and conventions, in a shirt that was chosen to go well with my trousers, with my poor Chinese pronunciation and my fabricated “professional” English accent.

Also became aware of what I want to do that I do not currently do; things I still want to know that I do not currently know; skills I want to master which I have not yet mastered; questions I have that I do not know the answers to – for example, what the difference is between an archbishop and a cardinal (train arrives, 21:30).

WEDNESDAY, 13 APRIL 2005

04:57

One must believe that it is POSSIBLE
for YOU
to be FINANCIALLY INDEPENDENT

that it is furthermore POSSIBLE
for YOU
to be HAPPY

and that it is POSSIBLE
for YOU
to make a POSITIVE CONTRIBUTION

Too many people believe in only one thing: that what has been “given” to them, including socio-economic status and accompanying role, function, and relative value to the community, is the best they can and will ever get out of life; that it may even be vain and arrogant to nurture ambitions beyond that range. These beliefs will in my opinion be to a large extent responsible for that remaining their reality.

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