THURSDAY, 14 APRIL 2016
1. It is difficult to say what I believe.
2. It is difficult for me to commit to anything, because I would have to believe in it 100% (see point 1), and I would have to constantly sell that commitment to myself.
3. I sometimes think when you think of a topic, or if you have an idea for a book, that a book has probably already been written about it. 50 years ago people thought along similar lines, and of course it wasn’t true, but now with Facebook and YouTube and Medium and Reddit and Digg emails with highlights from all over the internet it is hard to believe if you have an idea for a book that no one else in the whole wide world has thought about writing such a book. And maybe you do think of something that is more or less unique, but then another author or publisher with more resources see it and think they can do something similar, only better, or more interesting, or funnier. What I do wish I could see more of from other people is cosmic report type writing: I am aware of my existence; I have learned to read and write; I have developed identity; I survive (how?); I function (how?); I write about what I think and how I feel and how I experience things. If I do discover such a long-term writing project from someone else, I wouldn’t compare it to my own literary efforts. I will rejoice. I will eagerly read what that person thinks, how he or she feels, and how he or she experiences life.
4. Ten years ago or so I believed that I could write something, and someone will read it and think, “This guy is right. It needs to be so. I will act differently from now on.”
5. On Tuesday, 2 June 2015 at 17:26 I wrote the following: [Perhaps my life is not so different] from the next person’s after all, and I am indeed wasting my time with my so-called writing. On the other hand, I believe there is a slim possibility that I have lived my adult life so far in a way that has given me a unique view of human existence, and the life we live, and that a combination of personality and tertiary education could make it possible for me to write something that would make someone else say, “I like the wording of this. It’s not really something that I haven’t thought of myself, but the way the guy talks about it, makes it easier for me to organize my own thoughts.”
6. On Friday, 31 July 2015 at 10:06 I rolled the drum for an important insight: We often say, “But someone else has already said that,” or “Someone else is already doing that.” Fact is, not everyone heard when that other person said whatever they had said; not everyone has seen that particular movie, or has read that specific book. And even if people have heard what that man or woman had said, or if they have seen a certain movie or read a particular book, they may have forgotten the lights that had come on in their heads! We all forget things! This, at the end of the day, is why important things need to be repeated.
7. On Thursday, 28 January 2016 at 13:26 I wrote: Perhaps the best novel that would ever be written in any language has already been written. But still we have to continue writing. Perhaps the most generous man who will ever walk this earth has been dead for decades or centuries. But still we need to continue being generous.
MONDAY, 18 APRIL 2016
I have been thinking about this thing that I don’t really know what I believe in for a long time.
Then it hit me like a thunderbolt this afternoon: I believe in trees.
Think about it: trees are beautiful; they provide shelter to people and animals and birds; trees provide food for humans and animals and birds, and insects; trees house ecological systems in which some creatures live out their entire life cycles; trees clean polluted air and make it easier for people to breathe; trees provide wood for houses and huts and other shelters, and for furniture; trees provide wood for heat; trees provide paper for books; a person can become an activist for the cause of trees – in fact, many people are already devoting their lives to this cause; trees can keep growing for hundreds of years; and lastly but not least, if you suddenly find yourself walking naked outside one day, you can simply walk over to the nearest tree, gently break off a sprig of leaves and cover your face.