THURSDAY, 12 OCTOBER 2006
Natasja is the type of person who makes one believe in life again, and in love.
We all weigh ourselves up against other people; we watch what they do with their lives, and how they see themselves. Based on these observations and accompanying self-criticism, we determine our own value. In many cases, the picture doesn’t look all that encouraging.
Still, it is in relation to other people that our value is actually manifested. The above statement about Natasja places her in an elite class of noble earthlings: One Who Makes Another Person Believe in Life and Love.
The strange thing is, we often fail to appreciate our own value until we become that person for someone else.
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[On the back of a piece of junk mail, with no date, but I stapled it to a page with notes from Thursday, 12 October 2006]
You cannot claim to be a moral person, nor to live a moral life, if you are incapable of immorality to begin with. It is only when you are capable of an immoral act, and you choose not to turn possibility into action, that you can claim whatever reward awaits a moral person.
(To use a simple religious metaphor: One cannot go to “heaven” because you didn’t commit any “sins” if you were incapable of sinning in the first place.)
FRIDAY, 13 OCTOBER 2006
At around 04:00 this morning I went to the bathroom. As I was standing there, a thought formed in the blood vessels that are my brain: “I am an unsuccessful entrepreneur.”
Startled and a little confused, I tried to make myself feel better by reminding myself that before I became an unsuccessful entrepreneur, I was an unpublished writer.
So much for that.
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Perhaps the author of that one e-book is right: the natural condition for human existence is happiness.
That means to feel miserable and constantly under stress is unnatural and must be resisted at all costs as an abomination.
WEDNESDAY, 25 OCTOBER 2006
If one isn’t always two, do you really need a chip on your shoulder to see that?